Well Hello Old Friend.... I haven't missed you...

I can feel my depression coming back. I feel as if I've been able to handle it pretty well for a really long time, and now I almost feel like I'm back in middle school with the thoughts and the depression that I'm starting to feel. I don't like the way it makes me feel, and I won't put up with it. I keep telling myself it's not worth the tears, it's not worth the blood spilled, and yet it keeps creeping back into my mind. Whether it comes in the form of dreams, or thoughts that pop into my head while I'm driving. It scares me, and I don't want to feel this way, and I don't want to talk to the dr's about it again. They'll put me back on medications that I HATE! So instead I'm writing on my blog that no one reads... It's like my own personal journal....