Monday, January 18, 2010

Sometimes you just want to cut your wrists and die now is one of those times......

What is it about me that if you ask me to be a bridesmaid in your wedding something I do without knowingly doing it upsets you, you get mad, kick me out of your wedding, and we are no longer friends???????? Seriously this has happened to me twice now. I don't know what it is but apparently I'm not a good bridesmaid. I honestly don't know why I was kicked out of the first wedding she didn't tell me she just did and then deleted me from everything then told me we were never friends. Now tonight i get kicked out of another one. This time being best friends with the girl SINCE KINDERGARTEN!! seroiusly how the heck am i taking over your wedding when we haven't done anything to do with it in over a month. you can't ask me for my honest opinion then get mad at me about it and stop being my friend. what kind of person does this sort of thing??? i hate so much how people change when they start dating and or get in engaged. why am i the one to be treated like crap. this has happend with all my friends so far i go invisible and when i'm not invisible i'm being treated lower then dirt. I'm sick of it i really am!! i want to seriously go jump off a cliff or cut my wrists or something..... i hate my life i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!! I hate feeling like i have no friends feeling like i'm invisible to the world honestly would anyone even noticed if i disappeared?? my guess is a big fat NO!


So if you no longer want to be friends with me just ask me to be a bridesmaid apparently cuz before the wedding even happens we'll no longer be friends.....


ps don't worry i'm not actually going to hurt myself even though it sounds like a really good idea right now.